The “I Can’t” Delusion

The Mayo Clinic defines a delusion as “a belief or altered reality that is persistently held despite evidence or agreement to the contrary”. The “I Can’t” delusion concerns not only the mind but also the heart and is one that many countless followers of Jesus struggle with each day. Over my lifetime it has taken me 34 years to reach a place I never thought I would: healing. Healing isn’t so much a destination as it is a journey and I am confident there is much more healing God wants to do in my life, and yours. In fact, that’s the reason I’m writing this message today: prayerfully hoping you will join me in this journey in the freedom of Christ.

There is a lie that the father of lies speaks into the heart of every believer: “you can’t”. Because Satan is described as one who comes only to kill, steal, and destroy (John 10:10), we would do well to examine this lie so we can conquer it. Because of the relentless nature of this lie, over time the “you can’t” lie becomes a delusion that each of us owns and it slowly but surely becomes: “I can’t”. 

Although the “I Can’t” delusion plays itself out in many different ways in our lives, there are a few you are sure to recognize:

  • I can’t change
  • I can’t stop
  • I can’t find victory
  • I can’t receive healing
  • I can’t forgive
  • I can’t _____________ (insert whatever lie you struggle with)

Because Satan cannot steal our salvation and he cannot separate us from God’s love (Romans 8:38-39), the only thing he can do is trap us in lies that make us ineffective, depressed, and live a life contrary to the promises of God. Often in my own life the “I Can’t” delusion finds its roots firmly embedded in pride. In the deep dark corners of my mind where I refuse to admit I have a problem until that problem has almost destroyed me. It is by God’s grace and mercy that time and time again He brings me back from this place. Maybe you are there today… feeling so powerless but too ashamed and pride filled to admit it.

Every believer should memorize Romans 12:2, this is a powerful weapon we can use to fight the “I Can’t” delusion. Romans 12:2 says: Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect. (NLT). Often I’ve told my oldest son who struggles with the lie of “I Can’t”, whether you think you can or you think you can’t… you are right. Although all our struggles can’t be made right by simple positive belief, by trusting in the God of the impossible, nothing will be impossible for us.

It’s important to stop for a moment so you don’t misunderstand what I’m saying. The source of our power and our ability to do anything is not found with-in. The source of our strength and hope is found only in Jesus. It isn’t a matter of “if” Jesus can do something or not… nothing is impossible for Him. This truth is echoed throughout the Scriptures. It is here in the presence of God, fully forgiven, restored, and redeemed through our faith in Jesus that we can be transformed by God. Here, God changes even the way we think!

Let’s take a look at the list of “I Can’t” statements we already looked at:

  • I can’t can change because I am forgiven, free, and redeemed in Christ.
  • I can’t can stop because I am no longer a slave, I am free in Jesus.
  • I can’t can find victory, Jesus has already given it to me.
  • I can’t can receive healing because nothing is impossible with my God.
  • I can’t can forgive because in Christ, God has forgiven me.
  • I can’t can _____________ because in Christ I am a new creation, being transformed by the power of God. (insert whatever lie you struggle with)

My heart’s desire today is that anyone reading this message would experience the overwhelming Truth and freedom we have in Christ. It is past time for every believer to experience true freedom, power, and relationship with God through Jesus. Today and every day as you move forward, stop believing the lies that “You Can’t”. Verbalize the truth whenever the “I Can’t” delusion rises in your life. Take the truth of God and speak it over your life.

Lastly, know that Jesus is not “a truth”, He is THE Truth. The only way you will ever experience true freedom and victory in your life is through Jesus. Reading, studying, meditating, and filling your life with the Word of God will build you up with God’s truth concerning who you are. Everything we are is because of who God is and His great love for us (John 3:16). Here I am celebrating every victory with you, because YES YOU CAN, in Jesus name.

I’m a Mess

I’m a mess. There, I said it, the secret is out. It’s hard to imagine but it took a car wreck + near death experience + losing my wife and a child to move me to a place where I was even open to really admit that. I don’t mean admit it in passing or even about thinking I may have a problem but not really doing much about it, I mean admitting it to the very core of who I am: I am a mess. 

Over the past several years I have been meeting with a Christian grief councilor named Ric. Slowly over the past few years, painful session after painful session, I have seen layers of pain, shame, guilt, fear, and struggle exposed that I always knew were there but did my best to hide. Have you ever heard the old adage: “putting lipstick on a pig”? I dressed it up, sprayed it down with some nice smelling cologne, and did my best to hide it, but the mess was (and is) still there.

This month marks 9 years since I surrendered my life to Jesus in one of the most desperate, hopeless moments of my life. Since what seems like a lifetime ago, I have been slowly walking towards this moment. Towards a confrontation with the giants that have held me in bondage my entire life. As a evangelist and an under-shepherd in my local church and here in the My Emanuel ministry, I’m supposed to have it “all together”, here is another secret: I don’t. Worse, leaders around me have in one way or another encouraged me to keep my struggles silent, hidden, out of sight as if the honest truth somehow damages my testimony or what God is doing in and through me.

One thing that Ric has challenged me to do over and over again is to read books that help speak into my life in different ways. Recently Ric recommended a book that has spoken into my life in a very real, raw way and the honesty of the author Carlos Whittaker has been refreshing. The book, Kill the Spider, is a powerful lesson on getting to the heart of what is causing pain and destruction in your life. The biggest lesson this book has taught me so far is: I am a mess.

It’s taken four paragraphs to get here, but I want to ask you a question: is your life a mess? Have you done such a great job hiding the pain and destruction that everyone believes you? They think you have it all together but really you are falling apart inside… do you know what I mean? If not, take whatever God gives you from this blog post and have a blessed day. If you are though, I wonder… how far does the rabbit hole go?

We can lie to our spouse and our children. We can lie to our family and friends. We can lie to our therapist and our pastor. We can create that perfect facade, say all the right words, look the part, smell the part, smile and nod, and yet there is a war raging inside us that will eventually leave us bruised, battered, and broken. Surely I’m only talking to those who haven’t surrendered their life to Jesus… no, I’m talking to the faithful, devoted, passionate men and women of faith who want to follow Jesus with their whole heart, only they can’t because a big part of them is caught up in the pain.

I haven’t figured it all out yet and I become more confident each day that I won’t until I’m standing in the presence of Jesus. But while I wait for His return or for Him to call me home, I want to be whole again. I want to uncover the broken, messy, ugly parts of my life fully before Him and ask Him to do what only He can.

One Scripture that has constantly reassured me that although I’m not who I want to be, I am becoming who God is making me is Philippians 1:6: I am certain that God, who began the good work within you, will continue his work until it is finally finished on the day when Christ Jesus returns.

Did you see it?? Read Philippians 1:6 again… God began the good work… He will continue the good work until it is finally finished! God did what I was powerless to do when He saved me through the person of Jesus. Although there is a way more theologically sound way to explain this, God became man, the Creator stepped into His creation in the person of Jesus and Jesus (fully human and fully God) did what I was powerless to do (keep God’s Law, never sin). Then, this perfect Jesus who never sinned, died for me, in my place, for my sin, so that through His sacrifice my sins would be paid for. It is when I confess Jesus as Lord and believe in my heart that God raised Him from the dead that I am saved! (Romans 10:9). So to summarize my understanding of Scripture, God did what I was powerless to do, saved me, and now He is still doing what I am powerless to do, changing me.

With all my heart I want to encourage you not to give up. I know the pain that repeated failure can bring. I know the hopelessness, the despair, and even the depression that we experience when we just can’t seem to get it right. But in Christ, we are truly free (John 8:36). Never forget that Jesus came to give us abundant life (John 10:10) so that in Him we could live victorious lives full of supernatural joy as we experience His grace and mercy.

One thing that my time with Ric, all the books I have read, and the time I’ve spent praying and studying God’s Word have lead me to believe is this: we can’t truly experience God’s freedom until we face what He is setting us free from. At one point in Scripture Paul says that although he hasn’t arrived yet, he forgets the past and looks forward to what lies ahead (Philippians 3:12-14). Often I think we use this verse to justify running from the past, hiding from it, trying to escape it, ignore it, or pretend it didn’t happen. I don’t think this is what Paul meant. The problem is obvious… no matter how fast or far you run, when you get where you are going… there you are.

What is it from your past that you need to face? What hurt is it that you tried to run from that God now wants to heal? What horror is hiding in the closet that now impacts your relationship with your spouse, your children, and those you love the most? It’s time to step into the freedom and abundant life Jesus came to give you. Face that giant, or in the words of Carlos Whittaker: it’s time to kill the spider.

I’ll leave you here because I could go on all day. You don’t have to live in this dark place of fear. It doesn’t matter if you are a pastor, Sunday school teacher, small group leader, worship team member, mom, dad, husband, wife, or whatever, don’t be afraid to face your fear. Seek out Godly men and women you can speak to and receive Biblical counseling from. In the dark, Satan has power. When we bring our deepest fears and hurts into the light, we will find greater healing than we ever knew possible. Never forget the call for each of us in Galatians 6:2: Bear one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.

If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, anxiety, hopelessness, or despair, encourage them to seek out Biblical guidance from a qualified, trained professional. You can get immediate support by contacting the Samaritan’s Purse Crisis Center at (877) 870-4673 (text or call). Visit for more details.

The struggle is real


The struggle is real

Scripture: Romans 7:24, 25


There is a saying that some use to illustrate something comically, ironically or dramatically and can be used to express frustration, amusement, or a host of other emotions: “the struggle is real”. There is a much more desperate struggle that takes place in the heart of every man, woman, and child that is truly the real struggle, one that no life has ever been free from: the struggle between sin and sanctification. Sin, the result of disobedience to God, is a force that has corrupted, destroyed, and eventually killed every person that has ever lived (Romans 6:23). Sanctification, the power of God at work in the heart of any man or woman who surrenders at the cross of Jesus Christ (1 Thessalonians 5:23).


The struggle that we face, even after we’ve come to know Christ as Lord, is our flesh struggling against the desire and will of the Holy Spirit who dwells with-in our hearts. Paul spoke of this struggle this way: For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. (Romans 7:15 ESV). As a follower of Jesus Christ, as a teacher, preacher, minister, and disciple, I am fully aware of God’s desire and will as revealed in His Holy Scriptures, yet no matter how I struggle, I still fall and fail God daily.


The Devil is a liar and the father of them (John 8:44) and he would have you and I believe that if we fail God, surely we cannot be saved, forgiven, or redeemed. How could someone who claims to be a follower of Christ fail Him? How could someone who knows the Word of God fail to keep even the most basic commandments of Christ? How could someone who loves God disappoint Him over and over? Knowing the terrible price Jesus paid on the cross for me and because of me, how could I give in to the temptation and sin that He died to set me free from? Paul reminds us of the truth that we must hold on to: Wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, I myself serve the law of God with my mind, but with my flesh I serve the law of sin. (Romans 7:24, 25 ESV).


Today maybe you find yourself walking in a painful, dark valley, alone and desperately crying out to God, don’t give up. Though we may fail God, even in a very big, public, terrible way, the grace of Jesus Christ is enough and nothing can separate us from His love (Romans 8:28, 29). Maybe you are angry with God, questioning the pain and suffering in your life, maybe in your heart you are screaming “God, where are you!?” Quietly listen for His reply: “be still and know that I am God” (Psalm 46:10). You are not alone, Jesus is with you (Matthew 28:20) and trust that He who has started a good work in you will see it through until it is completed (Philippians 1:6).


May the words of Jesus pierce the darkness of the night you find yourself in, and may His blessed hope fill your heart with peace, joy, strength, and hope:


Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28 ESV)